Capacity

Once upon a time I worked with a man where I totally and absolutely had success and it led me to believe, I was successful and everything worked. When another time I met someone and worked with them, for some reason it didn’t work. When that man told me, I was not successful, it truly was unexpected. I didn’t believe him. He only had an idea to become successful, and I already was. This man didn’t hear me. He had his own ideas. When he tried to apply them, they never worked. This man truly failed. Instead of seeing that, he saw me failing. I never believed him.

I am normally heard. This time is was not so. Multiple times did I say to him, do not do this. Despite my warning, he still continued. As life confirmed, I did know. He had an idea that I was nobody. He wanted me to do everything. I did. When he decided it was a similar idea to someone else that he knew, he took a different approach and a new direction. I used to tell him, this direction was wrong. It reached the worst degree of losing everything material. I saw this and truly felt for him, how could he drop himself.

I knew that he was nobody. And that didn’t help him. I knew this not because he failed, but because he didn’t see me. Nobody sees me. I used to tell him, see what I can do. He used to tell me, I won’t. That didn’t help me.

I was always capable, intelligent, with lots of life experience, things worked really well for me, I used to visit friends, relationships with friends worked well. I had everything. When only once it didn’t work out, I wondered, why is that? When finally this man arrived, it totally didn’t work out. I used to think, why is it so? The only answer came, he was not thinking.

Now I see it differently. It is because he hasn’t got an external element. He only had an internal force. When I used to tell him to get activated, he hardly did anything. The influence of the external element is about being capable. I believe in the external element as part of me, it is the influence of capability and ability. When things worked, I felt great, I felt I knew. When things didn’t work, I felt horrible. This understanding came to me not right away. It appeared only two years after I left this incarnation. In spirit realms I used to wonder, why didn’t this work? And then it became apparent that this man never had capability. After having learnt that I used to come and help him in incarnation as a spirit friend.

~ Master Ataro, Mixed Internal

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